About Me

About Me

I became a mother at 17. My daughter was born profoundly disabled and a non-speaker, and she has been my greatest teacher.

Raising her as a single mother cracked me open over and over again. I learned about communication, energy fields, joy, humility, and love. In her early years we were manipulated and coerced into medical models that force, chop, decimate and maim - not only a body, but a soul. While I appeared to hold everything together on the outside, I was decaying on the inside.

As a mother, I didn’t get every decision right, but with time she showed me how to listen with my eyes, heart, body - my whole entire being and how to trust what can’t be spoken. How to feel the world instead of just thinking it. We learned to communicate beyond boundaries of words and matter.

In my life I performed the roles I thought would keep us safe: the ‘good girl,’ the hyper-independent woman - needing no one or nothing (Kasia Urbaniak refers to the independent woman as Good Girl Version 2 and I agree, it is a very disempowered place to be). I disconnected from my body, emotions, spirituality, sensuality, and my capacity to receive. I numbed my pain with avoidance, distractions and addictions. I longed for intimacy, but concurrently was terrified of it, I sought greater purpose - seeking, searching, wanting - reaching outside of myself, things I would continually allude me while I sought outside myself.

Guilt. Shame. Fear. Regret. Heartbreak. They looped endlessly in my mind and took root in my body as pain and dis-ease and I hit rock bottom, I dreamed of death, I welcomed it and sure enough it came, but not in the physical sense, it came in the death of my ego, who I thought I was, who I thought I was meant to be and I letting go over and over and over again. It was from that raw, honest place where I felt I had nothing left to lose that I discovered my struggle, suffering, fear and pain were not curses, they were illusions that held messages and gifts to the freedom that sought me.

What I once experienced as pain and avoided, I began to experience as opportunity and to explore it with curiosity. I followed threads that unravelled into deep personal work, profound spiritual awakening, and enriched embodiment. I met the parts of myself I had rejected - rage, grief, yearning, and learned to hold them with compassion. I stopped trying to escape and shame my past and invited it to become my teacher - ripe with gifts and opportunity.

In the shadows, I found my strength. In the places I felt most broken, I uncovered a wholeness that had always been.

My Work

My work is rooted in the understanding that healing isn’t about fixing what’s broken, it’s about remembering what’s whole.

I guide individuals and groups into deep embodied presence, where fear and pain are not enemies to escape, but invitations to meet life more fully. In this space, nothing is wrong. Everything belongs. And even the most uncomfortable sensations carry wisdom.

We live in a world addicted to bypass, either spiritual, physical, emotional or psychological. True freedom can’t come from avoiding shadow or clinging to light. It comes from holding both. From letting go of the illusion of separation and discovering what it means to be fully human and fully divine.

Pain, pleasure, grief, joy, rage, love - it’s all life.
To feel it all is not a failure - it’s a return.

We we learn to accept and be with what is, we begin to trust in the flow of the Universe, and can give and receive willingly, but without expectation.

We don’t suppress, escape or override, we listen, feel, be… and in doing so we come home to ourselves.

This is a path of non-dual embodiment, we dissolve the divide between sacred and mundane, spiritual and emotional, energy and matter. From this place of integration, power naturally arises, and not from force or effort, but from trust, alignment and being.

Everything is connected, you are already whole.